Thoughts on blogging...

I don't know why, but I have this voice in my head that tells me I can only blog if I do it regularly, have at least 3 posts a week, have a certain amount of followers, or have Pinterest-quality photos for each and every post. Without these things {and more} my thoughts, ideas, projects, and life moments are not worthy to be shared on the interwebs. 

What's up with that?! Why do I do that to myself? 

I honestly really enjoy blogging. The writing and designing that go into it. It brings out a fun, creative side of me that I don't share in other aspects of my life. Yet I limit myself, add all these self-imposed boundaries that scare me away from doing something that I truly enjoy. I really don't have the time {or desire, for that matter} to blog regularly at this point in my life. Throughout the school year I put crazy amounts of time into my work, and rarely take time to enjoy various hobbies like blogging. One day, hopefully, that will change, but I know it won't be any time soon. And that's ok. 

This, however, does not mean that I don't have fun life moments with my husband, that I don't make some yummy recipes every now and then, that I don't come up with fun diy projects that I want to share with friends, or wear cute outfits to work. So why can't I let myself share those moments when they do happen?! 

I've realized a couple things about myself and blogging lately... having a blog brings out 2 not-so-great qualities in me. What?! I have not-so-great qualities?! Yeah, a few. 

1. Blogging brings out the perfectionist. I am SUCH a perfectionist. It's dumb how much of a perfectionist I am. You know when you write your name on a name tag with a sharpie and it's not centered perfectly or the sharpie line is so thick that you can't see the little gap in an "a" or "e"... KILLS me!! ha! Anyway, back to blogging... the perfectionist in me feels like every post needs to have several fool-you-into-thinking-I'm-actually-a-photographer quality pictures, every post has to be extremely witty and charming, every post needs to be formatted just exactly right. And, not to mention, if I'm going to be blogging I better be blogging no less than 3 times per week!! Gah! It's exhausting just thinking about it! 

2. Blogging brings out the people-pleaser. I want people to like me!! I mean, who doesn't? But seriously, I have this crazy need for people to like me. Don't get me wrong, I've never been the kind of person to make horrible life decisions to make a friend or two, but I am the person that ties herself in knots anytime I get the feeling that someone doesn't like me or is mad at me for some reason. It's ridiculous! I mean, why do I even care?! I need this reassurance of sorts and blogging seems to amplify that. Like having tons of followers, or getting nice comments, or posting my projects to Pinterest hoping for repins. I tend to forget that the real reason I enjoy blogging is because I enjoy the creative process, I enjoy looking back on posts and reminiscing in this way, and occasionally, I enjoy having the pleasure of getting to know someone that I wouldn't have met otherwise. 

So, all that being said, it boils down to this... 

I want to blog and I'm going to blog! Profound, right?!

It might not be regularly, it might not be witty or inspiring, I might only be blogging for the benefit of myself {along with my husband and mother-- who else matters, right?!} but I will start blogging again. I'm not going to worry about a schedule, or about weird filler posts {like "what's in my bag" type stuff. Seriously, who cares?! Unless it's your make-up bag, then I kinda care. anyway...}. When I have a cool project to share or a fun memory I want to look back on, when I especially like an outfit I've worn or am excited about a new recipe, expect to hear from me. That's the kind of stuff I want to remember {and the kind of stuff I like to read about on other blogs}, so that's what I'll be sharing. 

Otherwise I'll probably be pretty quiet. And that's ok.